Man. What a sucky night.
Not only did the Eagles lose (;.; You have no effing idea how upset I am about that), but I'm also angered at Niki and saddened/doubted towards Luke. I'm angered at Niki because she dared to even say that maybe Jeff is a rebound guy for Sarah. Also, she claimed that she is always the one left out of the loop and finding out news last.
Me: "Not really. It just got to you last, that's all. You weren't the last one to know that Matt might get a new girlfriend."
Niki: "Well, that's different."
Niki: "Because it's Matt, and not that important."
This was in AIM. I copied-and-pasted that to Sarah. We were both like WTF. Okay, I'm not as close to Matt anymore. I never was, after we broke up. But that's just ignorant. He's probably gonna get his first girlfriend ever since me. That's great. And how DARE Niki say that Jeff is a rebound for Sarah, because she recently broke up with Matt Mullen?? Hell, it wasn't even recent, it was a few months ago! They both like each other, damnit! Augh. She's so ignorant. She's been my best friend for years, but I'm really beginning to not stand her attitude. She puts down people who are less-intelligent than her. For ONCE would I love to see her go to Padua. For ONE DAY. The academic level at Sun Valley is NOTHING compared to Padua. If she thinks she can survive Padua's AP classes, she's got another thing coming. I really wish that she'd go to Padua for ONE DAY, taking ALL the AP classes (okay, I change that to 1 month, so she can really get a taste of Padua). Really. She'd come crying back to Sun Valley in tears, because we're all more academically prepared for college than her.
Another thing to my problems is I keep on reading snippits of emails that Luke sent to Holly when they were together. I got rid of the actual emails earlier, but there's a snippit of one of them when I had copied-and-pasted his own words to him. I only read those words, and I get so upset that he said them to another girl. Like, REALLY upset. Like, so upset that I doubt him :\ It's a really ugly feeling, and I want it to go away...
And then the Eagles. They should have won. Enough said. ::sigh:: Well, this doesn't mean that they're a bad team. They just had a bad night, that's all... Really. Dallas, Green Bay, St. Louis, Kansas City... they're all REALLY good teams, but they all lost. That doesn't mean they suck, so that doesn't mean we suck either. But ::sigh:: how disappointing. You wanna know another reason why I'm so upset? If the Eagles won, Alyson would've had a party at her house for the Superbowl. If she had a party, I would've been invited, and so would Luke. It would've given me another chance to see him. He's gonna be going away to college after this year, so our time together is gonna be limited. It just would've been nice to watch the Superbowl with him, you know? Well. I'm gonna be cheering on the Patriots at the Superbowl. We're technically near that area, anyway. How dare the Panthers injure our quarterback like that. Poor guy :\ Hmph. The Panthers are lucky I still like them for their pretty team colors. >(
::sigh:: One last time for this season...
"Fly, Eagles, fly!
On the road to victory!
Fight, Eagles, fight!
Score a touchdown 1-2-3!!
Hit 'em low,
Hit 'em high,
And we'll watch our Eagles fly!
Fly, Eagles, fly!
On the road to victory!!!
GO PATRIOTS! KICK PANTHER ASS!! (you better...) >(
Augh. Disappointment, doubt, anger... I want ALL these feelings to go away. They don't mesh well inside of me. :\
Going apartment shopping with Mom and Melissa, then I'm going to the movies with Luke, Sarah, Chris, and Jeff. Bye for now.